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I was just on Skype and saw that lish was on. I didnt skype her for a while, wanting her to skype me, and have my reasons that would too long to explain that. She signed off, and once she signed off, my heart stopped beating. Then she signed on again, then my heart started to beat faster again. I dont think it's even a question of whether or not I still like her or still have feelings for her. In all honestly, I dont know why I still get nervous when I see her or talk to her on skype or even facebook. We were talking about her getting a tattoo, and she wants to get this wave on her foot, and have it wrapped around. I told her, that might look weird, so she should just get a peach ring, which is one of her favorite candies. Then she said, stop Jesse, I'm being serious. The only reason I can think of that makes me so nervous with her, is the fact that I guess at some point in our lives, we'll grow apart. I don't ever want that to happen, but sometimes it just feels inevitable. And I guess it's this feeling that has me making dumb comments or saying dumb things to her.

What a week...! Presentation, homework, labs, midterms, work, and a phone interview. So happy it's friday. It's kind of starting to hit that I'm going to graduate pretty soon. There are only about 2 weeks left in March, then April, then 2 more days in May. Classes are done on May 2nd, and I only have like one actual final. I am in the process of finding a job, and I'm going to keep looking. I've just been mentally drained today. It's so close to ending my college career, it feels like the last month of high school, and when you're basically done, and just have to take the finals.

AC

Our last Spring Break together started with a great trip to Atlantic City. We stayed at the Tropicana and did some gambling. I think we all have addictions now lol. It was really fun though. We played slots, blackjack, poker, and a lot of other weird games. We walked what it seemed like the entire boardwalk. On the walk going from the hotel, we stopped at Johnny Rocket's for lunch, went to the beach for a photo shoot, and took more pics. On the way back, we stopped at like every casino to "gamble". The only real winner was Karina. I'm not sure if Kyle won or lost anything, and Mary and I lost the most I think, but I think it was worth it. We took a nice long nap to the soul-tress voice of Mrs. Alicia Keys. Then we all got ready, put some music on, and made some drinks. We went to dinner which was really good, and went back to the room, where we did some more music listening. We went out to this one bar in Wild Wild West, and then played more games. Then at the very end, Mary and I decided to play blackjack at on of the tables. I got my first hand, and said "Hit" instead of doing the hand signal for Hit. Pretty funny. I ended up losing my 5 bucks, and Mary won a dollar. We walked back to the hotel, tried to go to the pool, but it was closed, so we went to bed. We got room service for breakfast, courtesy of Mary's card, and were on our way to this pizza joint Mary was raving about in Ocean City. She wasn't lying, it was really good. We got back to the house, and thats when my bi-polar kicked in. Am I bi-polar? I think not, but I have my moments when I just want to be quiet and want no one around me. Just ask Harry, he knows all about it. That was me last night. Being quiet with 6 other roommates doesn't work to well, so I felt kind of like an asshole for not being social. I grew out of it through the nite, and got better. Anyway, so far, it's been a good break, and now reality kicks in with Wednesday already here, and the fact that I have a lot of h/w to do...ttyl

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