WTF

I was just on Skype and saw that lish was on. I didnt skype her for a while, wanting her to skype me, and have my reasons that would too long to explain that. She signed off, and once she signed off, my heart stopped beating. Then she signed on again, then my heart started to beat faster again. I dont think it's even a question of whether or not I still like her or still have feelings for her. In all honestly, I dont know why I still get nervous when I see her or talk to her on skype or even facebook. We were talking about her getting a tattoo, and she wants to get this wave on her foot, and have it wrapped around. I told her, that might look weird, so she should just get a peach ring, which is one of her favorite candies. Then she said, stop Jesse, I'm being serious. The only reason I can think of that makes me so nervous with her, is the fact that I guess at some point in our lives, we'll grow apart. I don't ever want that to happen, but sometimes it just feels inevitable. And I guess it's this feeling that has me making dumb comments or saying dumb things to her.