Just gotta talk

I decided to do this blog for two reasons: to keep memories I've had in the past and to just talk when I really don't have anyone at the current moment to really talk to. My parents are here, but I've never really been able to talk to them about girls and relationships. So here we go. I'm not going to say "I like", because that's high school stuff. I have feelings for one of my friends. It all started while I was still in school. We had flirted a few times, and I started to become attracted to her. Her personality is just amazing. She loves to talk, knows random facts about everything and is very ambitious. We were fine before anything happened, could talk to each other, and it was never awkward. Then one night we started to hook up, and for some odd reason I stopped it. Maybe I was nervous about crossing out of the friend zone with her or something. For the next few days, I just wanted to finish what I stopped. I kept playing that night through my mind, and just wanted another chance. So, one night, we hooked up, and it was great. Only, I messed it again, by saying twice, "That was weird." It seems after that, it just hasn't been the same between us, which I really hate. We used to be really good friends, and because of my mouth, it's just not the same. I have feelings for her, and she's saying she has them too for me, but I just can't see it. Whenever we're together, I feel like she's trying to avoid me. I want to date this girl, I want her to be my girlfriend. I want to know her favorites: color, animal, place to travel, tv show, song, food, drink, hobby, movie, etc. I already know some of these, but I want to know more. I want her to confide in me her problems, good days, bad days, dilemmas, thoughts, feelings, stories. I want to be the one she calls after a tough day, and just relieves her stress. And I will listen. I love to listen. I'll listen to every word she has to say, and remember every single one of them. When I have feelings for a girl, all my attention goes towards her, that's just the way I function. I want to be the one her friends say to "I've heard so much about you." I want to be the one she says good night too, and good morning too. The only problem, if I say this to her, it might scare her and catch her by surprise. She is an amazing girl, I hope she knows that. Everything about her...WOW

WOW

It has been way too long since my last update. I've either been too tired or too busy to blog. Probably the former. First off, I got a job. I am now a junior developer at Fox Rothschild. Just a national law firm located in center city. Couldn't ask for a better to work at. I am loving what I do, and feels good to do that. Going to work everyday, liking what you do. Other than that, I went to the Temple football game 2 weeks ago, which was fun. Went to nyc to visit karina, with mar, seth, and kyle. That was a lot of fun. I am starting to miss college a lot. Granted, I always had homework and work, but I was with friends all the time. We'd go out, stay in and chill, watch movies, study together. I'm not staying I don't enjoy living at home, saving money, and chillin' with my parents. I just really miss having my friends in the house same house to chill whenever. I only know one person who lives near me, and she's in school doing her own thing. We talk like once a month, so I dont know. This other girl I like is sending mixed signals. I just wish people (esp girls) are always straight up with you. No guessing what their thinking; it's so annoying. I realize that no one will ever read this blog. I don't broadcast my URL anywhere and talk about my blog to other people. I'm just venting, and if someone reads this and can relate to it, then great. I've been doing this blog just capture how I'm feeling at different points in time. Until next time...

Change

For the past 21 years, I've been almost the same guy. The guy from the "hood", who is damn proud of that fact. A city boy who embraces his roots, where he came from, and how he grew up. I had a certain swagger about me, wore certain clothes that I was influenced by as a kid. Baggy jeans, ball shorts, sports tees, and sneakers. It was a look I grew up around, and one that I was very comfortable with. I talked a certain way as well, and had this mentality that I was tough to a certain extent. This is all about to change very soon. I am entering the real world, where all of this will not be acceptable. I will have to dress, act, and talk a certain way. Am I ready for this? Most certainly. I think this kind of change is good for me. I am fresh out of college, and ready to be molded to be a mature successful young man with decor. I am ready to be a professional and embrace this challenge. While I will be a mess Sunday night and Monday morning on my way in to my 1st day, in the back of mind, I am very excited for what is ahead of me.

Feel horrible

As the title says, I feel horrible. But not in the sense of being sick. My mom just said that she and my dad miss me. I'm almost never with them when they are in the living room. Whether they're watching a phillies game or something else. It makes me feel horrible, because I love my parents so much, and for my mom to say that to me doesn't make me feel so good. It's just that for the past month and a half or so, my parents have been on my case about getting a job, keeping track of contacts, and where to apply. I don't want to have to go through that whenever I'm with them. So my solution: to stay in my room. Well, my sister is coming home this weekend, so I will be downstairs a lot more often. Let's see if it continues after she leaves.

Happy

I am pretty damn happy right now. I'm getting some job offers, and I have a meeting with this staffing company on Thursday. Im chillin' w/ hayden and joe a lot, playin ball and stuff. I like this girl a lot, and when she get back from vacation, hopefully I'll get to see her and hang out and stuff. The only thing is, is that I'm a little nervous about getting a job. It's like college is over, and once I get a job, I'll be working all week, and not sure if I'll be able to see hayden and joe a lot anymore. It's one of those things every undergrad dreams about, and when it finally gets here, it moves pretty fast. We'll see what happens Thurs though.

so stressed

Ok, so it's hard enough to find a job by yourself, but it's even more stressful when my parents get involved. I know, they're excited for the next phase of my life and they just want to help and they have experience and everything. I get all of that, I really do. It's just that my parents don't understand that I can't apply to just any IT job. My major did have me take courses in more than one topic in the Computer Science field, but most of my courses were geared to teaching me about one thing: Developing. So when trying to explain this to my parents is not always fun. It's hard to tell them and have them understand. Oy Vey!!

Wolfpack Reunion

It had been planned, in pieces for the last 2 or so weeks, and it finally all came together this past weekend, It all started with me being by myself in the house on Friday night watching movies. Then the New Yorkers (Karina and her homies), Kyle, and Mary came by to go see Marina's final Treblemakers concert. It was great, and Marina did a fantastic job. Then Seth, Minh, and Tut met us at the movies to see The Hangover Part 2. It was a consensus that it was not as good or as funny as the first one. Oh well, then we all headed to Finnegan's Wake for a very good time. No one got too drunk, just a lot of dancing and having a good time. I had a blast. The best part was prolly the party bus we took back to the house. Everyone was convinced that we stole it from some bachelorette party. I think it was good timing and good luck. WE had to negotiate the price down, and that was pretty funny. After we all agreed on the price, it was chaos from there on. The stripper pole was harassed the whole ride. Not just by girls either...I just sat and chilled ad watched everyone else do their thing. Quite entertaining actually. The night did not stop there though, as the party continued on till the wee hours of the morning. Let's just say this, I didn't go to sleep till 5 and woke up at 9. So in total, I had a very good 4 hrs of sleep. All in all, great weekend.......!!!!!

Back at the house

So this post was supposed to go up this past friday night, but it didnt, so Im gonna do it now. I just wanted to say how I was all by myself that night, and I watched a movie, Brown Sugar. I've been told I should watch it by some of my friends because of a prevalent issue in my life that has really never been resolved, for a lack of a better word. After this weekend, the said issue has been "resolved", and it is about damn time. If you do not know what I am talking about, I'm sorry. I cannot elaborate on any details at this point in time.

Update

So, its been little more than 2 weeks since graduating college. Nothing is really that different, except the fact that I have a lot more down time. I've been chillin' with haden and joe a lot and playing basketball almost everyday. I'm still working at Temple part time and still looking for a real job that is full-time. I've made some headway with one issue I've been having lately, and hopefully it continues to get better. I might do a Vlog soon, not sure yet. Oh yea, I get my PS3 and Call of Duty on wednesday, so can't wait for that.

Reminiscing

Well, Karina and Mary left today and I've been thinking about every memory we've had in this house. I was one sad lad last night and this morning. I didn't even want to hang out with them, knowing this would be the last time in a while we'd be just hanging out. I was just really depressed, cause I felt like it was really the end. I know we're gonna talk and keep in touch even though we're not together, but it just won't be the same. These people are my best friends, and I REALLY do not want to ever grow apart from them. I love you guys so much, and not seeing Mary's desk in my room anymore is really starting to creep me out a lil' bit. Not to mention the fact the Karina doesn't even have a bed in her room anymore. AHHHHH!!!!! I miss you guys so much already!!!!!

Graduation

Well, we finally did it!!! We graduated from Temple, and it was pretty bitter sweet. I am not going to lie. I already miss college and the Wolfpack sorely. I cant wait until we all get back to the house on Sunday and reunite after just 4 days apart lol. I think we're all staying until wednesday, but I'm not completely sure. Anyway, I feel kind of lost right now. Like, I have no homework, but I feel that my homework should be trying to find a job. But, I kinda wanna relax a lil' now that I can, but I don't know what to do, and I dont like that feeling. Hopefully, tomorrow, I'll feel better once I get back to the house.

The Wolfpack and More

I remember asking my mom during my senior year of high school, “Am I going to make any friends? Will I meet people like me?” I was so afraid to even think about college. I was used to being high school, going home afterward, doing homework, and chillin with hayden and joe on the weekends. I never went out ever, and that’s what I was used to. I put off thinking about college till the very last moment. My parents had to sit me down, and ask me what I wanted to do. Here I am now, 4 years later, startin to tear up a little, thinking about my experience. I’ve had without a doubt, the best 4 years of my life. My freshman year would have been the same without mark, greg, and ben. When I was alone in my room doing nothing, they would invite me to go out with them and their friends, and till this day, I appreciate that. They made me feel welcome, when they didn’t have to. Sophomore year was even better. I roomed with Harry, and met my future roommates and the best group of friends ever!!! Even though Harry beat me all the time, I got pretty good at ping-pong. Harry was a great roommate, and was just a great person and friend. I could talk to him about anything, and vice-versa. He really helped make sophomore what it was. A lot of good times sophomore year. Then came junior year, which was met with my first ever apartment. I spent most of junior year between my apartment and my future house. The last week of junior year, I practically lived at the house. We had sleepovers, all-nighters, played call of duty, and 13. I remember minh scaring karina with one of those noise makers. So funny. I remember our trip to mary’s house, going to rice’s, and karina almost dying from chubby and Charlie. I remember going to my house and getting koch’s hoagies. I remember going to karina’s first phillies game, and minh and kyle and me having a hot got eating contest. I remember both thanksgivings we had. I remember going with tracy and karina to the brewery to sample beers. I remember going to dim sum with minh and karina. I remember going to south street with minh and mary before going to karina’s 21^st. I remember going to south street with karina, mary, and minh and eating at Copacabana. I remember me matt going to rita’s and getting free coupons all because of matt. I remember me and harry going to rita’s the last day and getting 2 quarts of watermelon. I remember st. patty’s day at the house. I remember me and kyle’s birthday party and the carry over into new york. I remember going to new york for karina’s 21^st. I remember minh’s birthday at mcfadden’s. I remember tracy’s birthday at finnegan’s wake. I remember silk city for Halloween. I remember playing baseball on before school started junior year. I remember the ping-pong tournament I entered and lost in sophomore year. I remember my first time playing call of dute and immediately getting addicted. I remember all the walks with karina to her apartment from the house to make sure she got back safe. I remember my 21^st at the draught horse. I remember all of the study nights at the library. I remember helping move karina’s stuff from her apartment to the house. I remember all the volleyball games and catches at the turf fields. I remember all the bars we went to. I remember all the funny and interesting cab rides home from bars. I remember the march city hall after the phils won the world series. I remember the parade. I remember all the movie nights. I remember mary’s incredible dip. I remember jersey shore nights and the girls’ 16 & pregnant and teen mom nights. I remember cooking dinner for the girls on Valentine’s Day. I remember all of the of duty games. I remember playing 2k win minh, and him always getting the jump ball. I remember going to geno’s and pat’s and me and minh getting one from both to see which one was better. In all honesty, a cheese steak from anywhere is good to me. I remember matt making Passover dinner. He made the best matzah balls. I remember our me and karina’s first party living at the house and her telling me, “You don’t have walk me home tonight”, and I said “Are you sure? Lol” I remember the april fools this year. Still have some pictures up. I remember going to J&H for the final time with mary and minh for 4^th meal. I remember ice-skating on the turf fields. I remember our Pollyanna. I remember our final party of the year this past Friday. I remember karina and mary visiting me at work last year. I know I’ve left out lots and lots of memories, but I’m doing this off the top of my head, so bear with me. I remember getting tasered at rice’s. I remember the greatest time of my life. I remember meeting the best people I’ve ever met. I remember having experiences I never would have had if I never met the wolfpack. I will remember everything that happened. I will miss everyone. I will always remember Tracy, Melissa, Kyle, Matthew, Minh, Karina, and Mary. I will never forget any one of you. You all have special places in my heart that will never go away. No matter where I am, what I am doing, or who I am with. I will always be day dreaming about a memory I’ve had with you guys and girls. We are all different in many ways, but these differences bring us together as one. If there was one word I’d have to use to describe my 4 years at Temple, I would just smile, nod my head, and say “Yea”. I love you guys and I love the Wolfpack. I hope we never grow too far apart, but if we somehow do, hopefully this lil’ note will bring back some good memories. I love you guys so much…

Most Boring Day

What is usually my busiest and longest day of the week, turned into my most boring day of the semester so far. I was probably supposed to work today at 8, but my boss never called me, so I didnt really worry about it. I woke up kind of early, around 8ish, and I couldnt go back to sleep. At around 10ish, I decided to start reading this book I had called PHP for dummies. PHP is basically a way to write cool looking web sites, and I kind of have to learn, so I figured sooner rather than later. I read that book from 10 to around 6:30. I'm not really sure how I was able to concentrate that long on reading. I did doze here and there and day-dreamed some too, but I mostly read that book. It was actually pretty interesting and I did learn some things. Then I made dinner and started to job hunt again. I only applied to one place, which I thought looked pretty cool, and I like what they do. And, I never changed out of my pajamas, which I think is pretty funny.

Never Again

Well, I only got to see her two days a week: tuesdays and wednesdays. Am I stalker? No. Just someone who appreciates the joy someone else can bring to life. I thought I might see her yesterday, but to no avail. I last saw her last Wednesday, actually twice. During lab, and then with her bf. That was hard to take, meeting her bf. I wanted to see and talk to her on tuesday, but my damn capstone class ran late with my stupid dumb group. I remember the first time I met her, the first week of lab. She left lab, then came back in to do more work. She would not stop talking to me, and I kept laughing. She had already made my day that much better. Unfortunately, I was switched to the upstairs lab, which means I would not be working in the lab where she had class. Every day she had lab, I would print something to the printer in the lab that she was in. Whenever I came in, she would always yell my name, not giving a care how people would react and say. She was always in her own world, and I admired that about her. I was always hoping the worker who was assigned to her lab was out, and I would have to replace them. That happened only once. So, the printer was my only excuse to go see her in the lab. I also saw her sometimes on Tuesdays before my night class. Got to introduce her to my roommates, which was pretty cool. I went to her lab yesterday to see if she was there, and she wasn't. I probably won't ever see again, but at least we're friends on Facebook.

never a best friend

I just realized I never had a best friend in my life. I mean, I've never had a friend who considered me their best friend. People have always either thought of me as their very good friend or just another friend. There's never one person who I can absolutely anything too. I'm not complaining, I have very good friends. I'm not sure exactly what I'm saying right now, but it made sense in my head. Let's say it this way: if I was walking with someone somewhere, I'd know in the back of mind that I was not their best friend. It's weird thinking about it, but I just realized that tonight. So, apparently didn't know what I was talking about. If I'm walking with someone, in the back of mind, I know that person has a better friend. There it is, that's it. That is exactly what I mean.

Old Habits Unfortunately never die

So I've had this problem for almost my whole life now. Words just tend to leave my mouth faster than then are thought of. I was when I was either nervous or not nervous, so basically all the time. I went to speech tutors in elementary school and middle school. I also went to an independent speech specialist. My parents tried all they could to help me, I guess be understandable. I was ok my senior year of high school, and I knew I had to somehow combat my speech problem in college. Socializing and being by myself, I had to know how to people and in front of people. I still slip up every now and then, because even though I picture myself saying the word normally and correctly, I still somehow slur or say it way to fast. It becomes even a greater problem when presenting. Everyone is staring at me and listening to what I'm saying, and I get so nervous. This was the case today for a job interview I had. First of all, I was expecting a old white dude, and got this hot asian chick. So right off the bat, I was a lil' intimidated. If you're an employer reading this, take this advice: DO NOT SEND A YOUG LADY WHO IS ATTRACTIVE FOR THE RECRUITING, SEND MIDDLE-AGED TO OLD PEOPLE. I caught myself just looking at her, and not really focusing in on what she was saying. The VERY first question she asked, I said the answered the whole thing in like 1 minute. After I was done, she asked me, "Do you speak another language?" I spoke so fast, she thought I spoke another language. At that point, the very first question, I knew I didn't have the job. But I had to keep a positive attitude, to keep myself going and not feel awkward or embarrassed about it. So I said no and just told her I was nervous. After that, it got a little better, as I told her about myself and everything. I asked her where she's the company in 5-10 years, and she gave me a good answer. What I wasn't expecting was for her to give me the same question. So I answered it, and she started laughing. This interview was like a kick to the nads. I told her about 4 different things, and she laughed, and told me that was a lot of things and very broad. So then I said that I had no idea to be honest, but probably a consultant. If I get a call back, I'll be very surprised. Horrible interview. Now I gotta start applying to more jobs.

Uh

So by the end of today, I was starving. And normally when I'm starving, I'm either grumpy and quiet or sort of energetic and in a joking mood. Tonight, it was the joking mood. I was having a pretty good night. I see Minh, and I'm like hey, and I didnt hear him say anything back, so I jokingly said good talk. I said this some more, just joking around. Minh goes into his room, and I follow him and says whats up. He responds with "Im bitter and fuck off". Normally, I would think he's joking, but something inside told me other wise. I saw him again downstairs, said what's up, and he again answers fuck off. I don't know if I offended him in any way or made him mad at all. But if he is joking, that wasn't funny. I'm the kind of guy who thinks that if someone is mad at me, joking or not, they are actually mad at me. Especially if I dont know what I did wrong, that really gets to me. I start thinking that I caused him to be mad, then I get mad at myself. The fact that he openly talked to everyone else in the house in the friendly way kinda pissed me off. I'm praying that he was joking. If not, then I feel bad.

awful

Wow, that was one awful phone interview I just had. I have got to be better prepared from now on. Read more tech sites or blogs, or something. My answers were not as thoughtful as they could have been. I stuttered a few times, and I just don't think it was good at all. I dont know what she thought, but that's what I thought. She asked me a lot of questions I wasn't really ready for: What is your dream job title?, What is the best way to write unbreakable code?, What is the best way to make sure a system is always up and running? I guess I should do more research or something. But I am not happy at all at how that interview went. However, I felt the same way about PNC last year, and they asked me to go to Cleveland, so I guess you never know. But in my mind, it doesn't look too promising right now.

Two Weeks

After today ends, the third to last week ends, which means only 2 weeks of school left. Yesterday, we had a lengthy conversation about graduation. Stuff like who was going to the big one, how many tickets we were all going to need, pictures, and all that jazz. It hit me then, that we are actually graduating. I remember moving into White Hall my freshman year nervous as hell. I was pretty sheltered throughout high-school. The only going out I ever did was to Joe's or Hayden's to chill. This was a whole new life for me. Now it's almost all done, and sometimes I can't believe it. I don't have a job yet, and that's pretty scary. The last thing I want, is to be back at home without a job, with my parents down my neck. I want to find one now, and that won't be easy. I partly blame myself, because I probably should have started during winter break, or early on this semester. I thought I had this one job, but the lady told me they had better applicants, which was a shot to my heart. The interview went really well, and the guy even gave her positive feedback on our interview. Someone just had a better interview I guess. Just gotta keep applying, and hopefully something sticks. The only things standing between me and graduation are 3 more blogs assignments, a final project, capstone project, badminton game test, badminton written exam, and a presentation. Then it's wam-bam-thank-you-mam.

Almost There

So graduation is only 4 weeks away, and I got my set of the jitters on Monday night before I was going to bed. In addition, I'm not sure these are related, but I havent been in the mood to go out as much or drink. I've been content to just stay in, play call of duty, or just watch to tv. I'm not sure if it had to do with graduation, or if I'm sick of going out, or if I'm sick of drinking. I honestly don know what it is. Well tonight, is the first night I'm going out in at least 2 months. I honestly dont even want to go out, but I might as well I guess. On a side note, I miss Hayden and Joe. During last summer and this past winter break, I had a feeling that that time would be the last in a while I would get to chill w/ them. Job hunting is going to take time, and I'm not sure how much free time I'll have this summer. It's kind of depressing and a lil scary. I don't know what the future holds, and that is both scary and exciting. Just remember something to say. I wasn't in the mood to go out at all. I was ready play call of duty, but no, the girls convinced me to go. Now, I'm kind of excited to go. That's friends are for, trying to get you to go out to have a good time with everyone else.

WTF

I was just on Skype and saw that lish was on. I didnt skype her for a while, wanting her to skype me, and have my reasons that would too long to explain that. She signed off, and once she signed off, my heart stopped beating. Then she signed on again, then my heart started to beat faster again. I dont think it's even a question of whether or not I still like her or still have feelings for her. In all honestly, I dont know why I still get nervous when I see her or talk to her on skype or even facebook. We were talking about her getting a tattoo, and she wants to get this wave on her foot, and have it wrapped around. I told her, that might look weird, so she should just get a peach ring, which is one of her favorite candies. Then she said, stop Jesse, I'm being serious. The only reason I can think of that makes me so nervous with her, is the fact that I guess at some point in our lives, we'll grow apart. I don't ever want that to happen, but sometimes it just feels inevitable. And I guess it's this feeling that has me making dumb comments or saying dumb things to her.

What a week...! Presentation, homework, labs, midterms, work, and a phone interview. So happy it's friday. It's kind of starting to hit that I'm going to graduate pretty soon. There are only about 2 weeks left in March, then April, then 2 more days in May. Classes are done on May 2nd, and I only have like one actual final. I am in the process of finding a job, and I'm going to keep looking. I've just been mentally drained today. It's so close to ending my college career, it feels like the last month of high school, and when you're basically done, and just have to take the finals.

AC

Our last Spring Break together started with a great trip to Atlantic City. We stayed at the Tropicana and did some gambling. I think we all have addictions now lol. It was really fun though. We played slots, blackjack, poker, and a lot of other weird games. We walked what it seemed like the entire boardwalk. On the walk going from the hotel, we stopped at Johnny Rocket's for lunch, went to the beach for a photo shoot, and took more pics. On the way back, we stopped at like every casino to "gamble". The only real winner was Karina. I'm not sure if Kyle won or lost anything, and Mary and I lost the most I think, but I think it was worth it. We took a nice long nap to the soul-tress voice of Mrs. Alicia Keys. Then we all got ready, put some music on, and made some drinks. We went to dinner which was really good, and went back to the room, where we did some more music listening. We went out to this one bar in Wild Wild West, and then played more games. Then at the very end, Mary and I decided to play blackjack at on of the tables. I got my first hand, and said "Hit" instead of doing the hand signal for Hit. Pretty funny. I ended up losing my 5 bucks, and Mary won a dollar. We walked back to the hotel, tried to go to the pool, but it was closed, so we went to bed. We got room service for breakfast, courtesy of Mary's card, and were on our way to this pizza joint Mary was raving about in Ocean City. She wasn't lying, it was really good. We got back to the house, and thats when my bi-polar kicked in. Am I bi-polar? I think not, but I have my moments when I just want to be quiet and want no one around me. Just ask Harry, he knows all about it. That was me last night. Being quiet with 6 other roommates doesn't work to well, so I felt kind of like an asshole for not being social. I grew out of it through the nite, and got better. Anyway, so far, it's been a good break, and now reality kicks in with Wednesday already here, and the fact that I have a lot of h/w to do...ttyl

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Campus Monsta Launch Party

Last night, we all went to support Karina for her internship at Campus Monsta. The launch party was at Drinker's West, and it was basically all Drexel and Penn kids, with a few Temple kids here and there, which was basically just us. The Drexel kids were crazy and kind of outta control. I was sorta tired before we went out, and had a minor headache, so I wasn't really in a dancing mood to begin with. But overall, good night. This meepme thing they had up was hilarious. Its a good concept, but next time dont show everything on the monitors. Then we went to Wawa later that nite, and that was it. Oh, not to mention the strobe dance party we had back at the house, good times.

1st few weeks

So this has been the first time in 3 weeks I've had enough time to blog, so I'm gonna take advantage of it. I've started my new job, and I'm really enjoying it. My boss is very nice and so is his graduate student. Just a fun place to work at, and may lead to some jobs after I graduate. I'm still at the other job at Wachman hall. And I'm taking 5 classes, though only one of them (Capstone) is required for me to take in order to graduate. I need 16 credits this semester to graduate, so I have to take 15 fill-in credits, which are basically anything I want. Im taking Computer Securities, Web Art & Design, Badminton, and Language In Society. It's a lot of work, but I will get it done. If there's anything IB at Bodine taught me, it's how to manage my time, while also doing quality work. On to other news, I saw lish on Jan. 21 before she went off to Greece to study abroad. We tried so many time to see each other during the break, but we just couldn't agree on anything, or someone couldn't do it. Finally, we had a date, and a time, and it finally worked. We saw the Green Hornet, went to Mickey D's to watch me eat 40 nuggets and her 4 or 5. Then she drove me back to my Temple house, and we just chilled, talked, and listened music during the car ride. Before I said goodbye, I just told her to have fun in Greece. After not seeing her for like 4 months, it was a little weird seeing her. It just felt different in some way, but a good different. Since then, it's been, class and work and class and work during the week. And then during the weekend, it's been sleep as late as possible, do h/w, then do w/e it is we're gonna do that night. I actually might want to go home soon. I'm feeling kind of nostalgic. That's that for now.

The Future

So it's almost been a month since I've blogged. I was out last night with Hayden celebrating his birthday, and something hit me. We're all our separate ways in a few days. I'm going 20 minutes north back to Temple, Hayden is going back to Vegas, and Joe is already back in VA. Together, we're like the 3 musketeers. We have our inside jokes, rag on each other, watch sports and dumb jersey shows. My favorite has to be Jerseylicious. Even though Joe says he has Olivia, she's really mine. Now, we go our separate ways, and back to our other lives. I'm in my comfort zone when we're all together, cause its familiar, and it feels right. When I go back to Temple, I do little things that make me feel I'm back home with the boys. After I graduate, I'm not sure where I'm living, if I'll have a job or not, and there are a lot of other things that are unknown too.